2025-05-19
Guess who has another skin infection! I'm so tired of being in pain because of my fucking skin. Shit sucks. I have no idea how much I weigh since I've been away for so long.
I want to get back on estrogen and just get back to working out a lot. I'm tired. I'm so bored. I keep scrolling twitter and youtube.
Started eating more protein hopefully that will help things a bit. Still in Utah. A bit sad. Want to be back on E. I feel weird.
I want to get back on estrogen. I want to be a muscle mommy. I'm so ready to stop having skin infections. I'm so ready to be focused.
I'm also bought a Nespresso machine, but I'm in so much goddamn debt. And like it's whatever. I'm going to have liquidity issues after paying rent. It's so embarrassing I make good money and have not been able to make progress on my debt. I'm pretty tired. ahhhhhhhh. Looking forward to going home and having total control of my exercise and diet.
So tired of having skin infections. So tired of computer. Did some reverse engineering today and like my heart REALLY wasn't in it. I need to start wearing sunscreen. I'm so tired.
Been listening to the youtube dj noodlecan a lot! His mixes kind of suck but I'm into them. I has this good dexter mix which is pretty good. I think I'm ok. Bit tired.
I'm so old, I remember.
I'm so old, I remember
I'm a bit annoyed with my body. Like do better! I just want to look hot! I'm a faggly little bitch. I'm over it now. I'm so broed.
I think I'm in love with my best friend
I don't know if I'm into women
I think I talk too much
IDK who I am
I have NO idea what I'm doing
I need a new job
I need to move
Kind of hate denver
Love denver but hate denver
I need to get faggier
I'm scared of men. Ever since I've been attacked been scared of men. Well I was scared of them before that. But it's only gotten worse with my transition.
I like david sedaris
Meanwhile elsewhere
I kind of don't like my current life. That's why I went of estrogen.......................
But I don't want to be a man. I don't think. I just want to be a jacked lady. I think. I'm non-binary so IDK if it matters. Hormones are so weird.
IDK what I want. I think i want to be fucked by men. Kind of like being a top but it's whatever. IDK who I am. IDK what I want. I'm so bored.
I'm so tired of being fat and out of shape
I'm so tired.
I want to be jacked
I'm bored
It's like whatever
I kind of miss Chicago
I don't really love anything
I don't like having interns
I don't like being responsible for interns
I'm so sadge
I want to be cool
I want people like to me
I want to stop lying
I want to be more honest
I want to be normal
I want to be normal
I want to be normal
I want to lift heavy
I want to gain muscle
I want to be shredded
Maybe I should quit cofeee
I'm not sure it matters.
I'm in so much goddamn debt. It's pretty depressing.
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